As of now this tumblr feels useless, I don’t see myself using it so much but for liking pictures just like on instagram.
Just need to vent a bit.
Earlier today, I drove into work and was seen by students of mine that I’ve coached on the tennis team. There was only two of them and everyone at the school knows my car. One student, lets call her TICK, left the team this year as she didn’t want to play tennis anymore, the other one, lets call her DOT, recently finished the season on this year’s team. Dot acknowledged that was I was there, and waved a bit, while the Tick continued to look down at her phone. That irked me a bit because It’s one of those things where I’m pretty sure she saw me, hell knew it was me because I stopped Dot to ask her a quick question.
Sure I have not seen Tick for a long time and stopped talking to her because of our differences, but that goes on for a lot of my students. I get all of them have their lives to go on, they stop by the courts every now and then to say hi and so forth, but this one just got on my nerves because I wasn’t acknowledged. It’s bugging me quite a bit because I did much for Tick during her time on the team, then to be discarded like nothing is a big slap in the face. Even some people that I didn’t find to respect for a long time have acknowledge me when they cross path but no with Tick.
You’re probably reading this and going, why do i need the feeling of being acknowledge by just one person? It all comes back to the whole line of respect I gave that person when everyone else threw it out the window. Time after time, i was used like a dish rag and tossed over when done, called upon when I was needed but rarely for just something casual. If it was casual, it was for her benefit, not mine. Yet I still continued to respect this person, even though I saw how ugly of a person she was. I was blinded for a while then slowly came to my senses. Slowly I lost all respect and cut the line of trying to show her the light and communication over fb, im’s, texts, all ceased. There was a friendship connection before but never crossed over to anything more.
Now I see myself as “one of those.” I won’t get into more details of that as that is another rant saved for later but thsi is just the gist of it all.
To completely ignore the one person that brighten up her life for a while is simply disrespectful.